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it just all about u..

she came home
that night..alone
as she always did

after laying her body off to bed
and open up her lappy

now she turned to smile
because of seeing him
available in the chat room

she didnt understand
why such that man
always come up on her mind
all the time

she doesn't want him,
to know her feeling.
but the only heart,
she wants him to have is hers.

the reason why,
she always hides,
is cause she thinks,
she's not worthy to be in his eyes.

she's always alone,
in the summer heat.
and always wonders
if they can meet.

she cried and sit,
around at home.
and always wanted,
to be alone.

he's the only one,
she wants to see.
because with him,
she can finally be,

The woman that lives,
her whole life fear.
Without even,
shedding a tear.

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